"If y'all was capable of getting it, I wouldn't mind explaining
If y'all was capable of getting it, it wouldn't need explaining"
Nephew it's rough for me to be writing this rn knowing that it means so much time has passed with me physically out of your life but it's also a blessing because you're still here to read these words, & I'm still here to write them. Someday I won't be. I think about that a lot. I don't do so in a self pitying way, nor a fearful one, just factually. When I think about my mortality I think about what I can do with the time I have instead of live frozen with thoughts of what I won't be. When I came here you were 4 years old. I taught you a lot even though Ik you don't remember me doing so, but what I'm most proud of is the things that you taught yourself. You've grown past so much adversity & pain. You strongly step into your manhood & what it means to you, & I learn from you daily. Now here you are a husband & soon to be father & I feel incredibly blessed to see who you've grown into. Life is very very uncertain in the best of times & these days aren't the best of times. So while we have time I need you to know that I love you on an indescribable level. Every single breath that you take is a choice & I thank you for always choosing to continue on. Life won't get easier, or safer. Nor will it just miraculously all make sense, but I gain strength from you. From your constant existence. Who you are & have always been fills me with the hope I need & fuels my commitment to being me. One day very soon this will all be a memory & a different stage of life will begin, when that day comes I hope to still be as blessed as I am today. Please continue on your journey & keep the courage that drives you forward. You are needed in more ways than you will ever consciously know. In a world full of influencers you are the biggest & most important one in my life. Keep reaching for the stars, never settle. You are loved & infinitely appreciated. Happy Birthday!