Day 10 leading to Year 4
"If y'all was capable of getting it, I wouldn't mind explaining
If y'all was capable of getting it, it wouldn't need explaining"
Have you ever considered how much of an impact your existence carries? Do you know how many people wake up without a Mom each day? Do you know how many people wake up missing their daughter? Their sister? Their niece, cousin, friend, aunt, spouse/reason for existence? How many people wake up wishing for one more day with Gram? We spend so much time. So much energy. So much opportunity, on things that drain our energy and recycle none of it back to us. Our love is energy. Our investment is energy. We pour energy into people who aren't here anymore. We invest in who they were to us. We invest in what we could've done. We invest in what we wish we had done differently. But the people in front of us we invest in what we don't like. What they did last week that was nutty. We invest in the argument from a year ago. We invest in the gossip and the rumors. How much energy does it take to wake up thankful that your mother still breathes? Whether she yelled at you, dismissed you or frustrated you. How much energy does it take to be thankful that she still exist? What about your daughter? Your sister? Your wife? It's inevitable that you'll wake up one day and someone who was here yesterday won't be today. It's inevitable that one day the world will awaken and you won't do so with it. We literally have right now. Not generalized as "today". We have right now. Car accidents are a thing. Look how quickly Covid became a thing. Everything is a thing. Breathing the wrong air is a thing. Drinking the wrong water, eating the wrong food. Things. These things and many more are things we're all susceptible to, breath after breath. We have right now. Your impact is life consuming. You are needed. You are loved. You are everything that I need you to be. You are so much more than anyone will ever be able to comprehend. What I am is simply thankful that you exist.
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