Day 1 leading to year 4
Updated: Sep 5, 2022
"If y'all was capable of getting it, I wouldn't mind explaining
If y'all was capable of getting it, it wouldn't need explaining"
People constantly take today for granted. I don't think anyone is more aware of this fact than people fighting to stay free of an addiction. I battle my own addictions that I use to help me cope and survive another day when my desire to continue existing gets weak, but this isn't about me. Today is September 1st. In 18 more days my wife Fatimah will reach her 4th Rebirth Day. 4 years of sobriety that I am extremely proud and thankful to her for. I could wait until the 19th to celebrate her, but then I would be doing exactly what I mentioned in my opening sentence. One day at a time is a motto that truly means what it says. It's not negative to say that there is a guarantee that my wife will still be sober on the 19th. I am not going to overlook the fact that every single day is as hard a struggle for her as the day before. Plagued with numerous illnesses and chronic pain associated with them all. A tumultuous relationship with an incarcerated spouse. The struggle of maintaining a single parent household, while being attentive and invested in two teenage adolescents struggling to cope with their own mental, emotional and physical health problems as well. Relationship struggles in every direction because bridging the gap of having people see past who you used to be when you were trapped in your addiction, and see you for the better version of yourself that you are now struggling to be, is also an uphill battle of epic proportions. I hate your struggles. I hate that I sometimes add to them. I hate that I most times cannot help lift the load of the ones you carry, and how life lets you down time and time again. I need you to know today that I am extremely proud of you. Thank you for fighting daily to be the best version of you that you can be. It's not always appreciated, buy I hope it feels so right now. I love you. Please keep fighting. #ST #SurvivingTogether #EverydayMilestone #OneDayAtATime