"If y'all was capable of getting it, I wouldn't mind explaining
If y'all was capable of getting it, it wouldn't need explaining"
When I exploded into this world you were already a part of mine. A mother. A father. Two sisters & My Brother. I won't pretend to remember what that day was like, or any of the many early days that followed. But I do remember what growing up with a Big Brother was like. Firstly, you were better at me than everything, which was annoying, but humbly motivational. The hurdle of beating you was always the goal that I kept pursuing, & although I didn't succeed until I was fully grown (whipped ya ass on that chess board lol), the pressure & the lessons of struggling against a worthy opponent prepared me for life's battles very early on. My dad was my 1st example of being a man, but you were my 1st example of being me. I tailored myself after you. The way you walked. The way you talked. Ya hobbies, likes, dislikes, ya music. Everything YOU I sifted through adopting some things & dismissing others. On my journey to being me I learned a whole lot about you. I saw your faults. Your insecurities. Your weaknesses & your many strengths. Today marks the day that you started your journey 41 years ago. It's been a very long time since we were close enough to learn from each other & I hate that. You were one of my very 1st teachers, & I need my bro back. Life pushes & pulls. It drags us all through all kinds of shit both figuratively & literally. We don't have a whole lot of time on this planet to lose out on the opportunity to love & build with the people who matter most, & 1 of those people (for me) is you bro. I am thankful that you escaped. You disappeared from the city that swallowed up so many of us. You shook off what was "expected" of you, & courageously did ya own thing. I'm hoping to emulate you in that regard as well. You are 1 of the greatest people I know & I take pride in that. Please continue to be you. I love you Big Bro Happy Birthday! #SurvivingTogether #BirthdayShoutOut #TSC #RosesGiven